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 First I want to ask you to be patient with me. These first posts may seem disjointed and may not flow well but I'm learning. I've seen and been through many many things though out my marriage.  November 2014 My husband Alex hit a new low. When a girl was caught in our bedroom in the middle of the night he decided that his best defense was to declare I was hallucinating and that I was crazy.  That night was an awakening for me. It was just the very tip of clarity for me.  I had gone through so much with Alex. Good, like after 11 years I finally had our daughter. Only child. Shanon. Bad, like Alex's motorcycle accident, our apartment burning to the ground. Then there was the horrendous. Examples, Being drugged. More then once. Being raped by a friend of Alex's. Alex being the one who orchestrated them.  These are a couple of the reasons I believe he wanted anyone who would listen, to believe I was crazy. He sincerely wanted me to commi...

Introduction of Sorts

My name is Melanie Cantu. My husband's (soon to be ex husband) name is Alex. In November 2014, after 37 years of marriage, I had an experience that would set my life on end. It also set me on the path of clarity. This being my first post I want to give you a little insight into who I am and why I am even doing this blog. My goal is to share my journey of healing. The hard, confusing, frustrating, as well as the clarity that comes to anyone who has survived an abusive relationship. My husband is a narcissist. It took me decades to see this. In 2014 there wasn't a lot of info out there about narcisstic abuse or even about narcissist personality disorder. Heck, when my life started crumbling I didn't even know how to search for all that was happening and all I was feeling. I knew my marriage had always been unbalanced. Everything revolved around my husband and keeping the peace by keeping him feeling important and appreciated. As bad as this sounds, it also seemed ok ...